Current goals as a writer

     As a child, I had aspirations of someday becoming a writer. Sometimes, I would sit in class and map out my future, maybe I would be a scientist, astronaut, or even a JOURNALIST. When I was younger, writing was what you could call my "forte" because all I needed was a piece of paper and pencil to write about anything and everything creating my own unique world of whatever my popped into my imagination and simply because writing enticed me. Writing was my outlet (and still is) to the real world. I was never a violence child, but whenever I was angry, sad, or happy, I would just grab a pad of paper and a pen to write and use the emotion to fuel the material. When I was mad, I would attack with written words, when I was sad, I would create tales about getting lost somewhere, and when I was happy, I would write short stories with happy endings. This is really the career field I thought I wanted to pursue.
     Until I hit seventh grade, I already had a plan and a future set up for me. I was never sure about anything except that one day, I would be a writer. I kept this foolish pipe dream of mines because I thought I actually had a chance of going through with it due to of all the positive encouragement and feedback from my peers and teachers. However, as the years passed and time progress, my writing did not. It was almost as if my writing had hit a mental blockade and just stopped in its tracks. Slowly but surely, everyone developed their own writing style which raised the competition and lowered my chances of a good grade. I then found myself struggling through essays and lacking the words to express everything running through my mind, and after a while, I just lost the train of thought and it never came back in the same way. Up until then, I was set on what I wanted to do, but at that point, second thoughts and doubt filled my head and I wasn't quite sure about anything.
     So now, my current goals as a writer would have differed a lot if I hadn't "lost my touch". What I want to work on as a writer is enhancing my skill and expanding my vocabulary. Actually, I want to do a lot more. I want to stop using run on sentences and cut redundancy. I want to get my point straight across without being to forward but still building the perfect amount of back-round for the reader to fully understand what I am saying. I want to learn to get all of my thoughts out of my head and clearly recorded without the thought dissipating and never coming back. I want to push myself to be a better writer in so many ways in hopes that someday my "foolish pipe dream" may actually be a considerable option. I've always liked free writing over any subject because you can create anything. With patience and plenty of practice, journalism may be another acceptable career choice in the future.